Harison Xavier

  2019 There are always good and bad times. My goal for the past three to four years was to be happy all the time, no matter what. I developed this skill to cope up with loneliness about three years ago. My key research was how to find happiness at any given moment, and one of the few things to do when I feel lonely or sad are walking early morning, pet a street dog, take a deep breath and meditate,  looking into cool photographs like the one above. I don't know why, but looking at pictures like these makes me every happy. In addition to this I found one more, this is more effective than all above that I have mentioned.                  As I was discovering life, going through my own way, I was given an opportunity to visit an orphanage for differently abled kids. For security reasons, I will not be able to give out their names at this moment. The home is very far away from where I work. So I applied for a leave for 2 we...

 Stubborn - A life Story Of  A Fool       Spetember 20 2020            It was quiet outside, the city is asleep. Warm morning. It was one of the rarest of the rare moments of time when Bangalore is this quiet. There is no long traffic, honking cars, cows  or people outside. Just the dusty streets with few street dogs and garbage men. Few people are on their way out to work, it is a hard time for the daily wage workers. The Corona virus  pandemic    have hit everyone hard. Life is all a struggle for survival for them. Me sitting in my crappy room, waiting for all this to end.  Life was good last year, I have even mentioned it to a few of my close friends before the year ended that this was the happiest year I ever had. I was able to find happiness and peace. Most importantly I had great experiences all year round. I was finally happy about spending all my day alone. I never felt lonely. I was producti...

Preface                                     What you would read is my experience talking to an unknown girl for the first time. I think it is worth sharing. This is a story I shared to few and this was really funny to them. The incident happened was real. I always remember that day. I don't know why but I remember it so well.  Beginning  The weekend is here, I need to get back to the 9th floor office pantry. I work in night shifts all weekdays, I sleep till 7:00 pm even on weekends. I don't want to sleep on weekends at night because it will mess up my next week plans.                  The office pantry is my hideout for the weekend. I don't want to stay with my friends in the apartment. We don't share the same values. We are different. So I have to make this sacrifice. All my weekends I will be here. I don't have much friends in th...

                 As usual my 3:30 am alarm rank, I picked it up and started checking my messages and then I though, It's Sunday. Let me give myself a break. I have been pushing harder and harder everyday to get things done.                     So I thought let me give myself a treat today, on the other end my brain says don't do it! I may fall back to the old routine. It's been more than a month since I gave myself a good sleep. So I thought even if I fall back, I will keep up with my routine in waking up early.                      I slowly started thinking about how this day should be. Plan for the day, and slowly I started drifting to a sleep. I recently learned about lucid dreaming and steps to lucid dream, but once I fall asleep, I am on a journey to an unknown world without the the control of thoughts or actio...

                          Openness one of the five traits of Big 5 personality model or Five Factor Model . I would say I am an average in openness maybe 45% to 65%. Openness is  openness to experience.  Most entrepreneurs are high in openness, it's a great quality to have. That's how they are bombarded with ideas, they talk to people, they brainstorm new concepts and then take action.  I have a desire to do something by myself just like any other person. So I was on a quest to be more open to ideas, be more better communicator, try out new things to get some insights or inspiration.                      Year 2018 - I have been hearing about this app named "Tinder", love stories of people,  how easy it is to use, how to find your love, experiences of celebrities. I though to my self "I am 26 years old, never had a girlfriend, this would...

The New Partnership Game The new partnership game is here. I am so excited! Two powerful forces joins together for a game of champions. Mukesh Ambani's Reliance Jio and Mark Zuckerberg's Facebook have just joined forces.     Facebook have just bought Rs 43,574 core worth Reliance Jio shares which is up to 9.99%, Facebook is now Reliance's largest minority shareholder.  India's largest telecommunication company and Facebook had their fare share of disagreements before this is the fist time they are coming together.  This would bring in growth to India once we are out of Covid 19 pandemic and once the partnership launches their business.   The Platform                    So what do we get when the largest social network and the largest internet provider join hands? It is still early to speculate . Information regarding this is top secret at the moment.  A digital ...

New Business Era : Post Covid 19   Fellow beings of the world, we are going through  one of the hardest time in the 21st century.  The pandemic is at our streets claiming innocent lives very day, people are forced to stay at their homes in order to save themselves from this invisible enemy.  Until we find a cure for this disease, we will be hiding from corona in our homes. The entire nation is under lock down, almost all IT companies have given their employees options to work from home. Other sectors like non essential goods, manufacturing industry,  automobile, infrastructure,  tourism have been badly affected.   Daily wage works are out of jobs and are unable to work. Reading through daily news it is one of the saddest times ever.  Stock markets have crashed and are at the lowest of the past 10 years.  However, we have a great future ahead. A smarter, brighter future, this is an opportunity to rethink our ow...

Regret                            I shouldn't have said it! I can't take it back now. I wish everything was just the way  it was  before . I am sorry.  I was just trying to put my thoughts through. I wanted to connect my thoughts and feelings with you and let you know how I felt. It was not an impulsive decision, I though of it for a long time and just wanted to let it out.  Within a few moments I found out that, I was wrong, my preparation was not enough. I should have given a deeper thought to it. I should have refrain myself from saying the truth.  Truth hurts. It's painful but it is for the better good. It would be fine if I have not said anything. Instead, I said the truth, now the weight on my chest is gone. Now there is a chance for better understanding and trust between us and also a chance for disgust and anger.  What should have I done? I...

Thoughts as Prayer O Lord have you gone invisible to you? am I that bad, you don't even care? I wonder why am I suffering ? Have you abandon me O Lord? I wish I could be your best I wish I was loved more by you Would you turn your gaze to me? Would you love me more. Love me O father of all universe Love me more and more Same me from this darkness Save me and take me to Aden. Time gets hard and I can't find you I feel lost, I feel unwanted I wanted to be loved I wanted to be cared - Harison Xavier

Corona Virus and Our Future Introduction                                                 I   had E-Business lecture and group discussion yesterday with my classmates in Zoom app. From a regular classroom to an online session. I don't like to have an online session normally, it takes away my desire to have face to face conversations with my professor and pals. One and the main topic we discussed was the present situation of Covid-19 or Corona virus pandemic. I saw that most people are worried for obvious reasons and there is fear in the session. I believe that I was the only one who is happy.                                 I understand that we the world are suffering, but what makes me happy is my belief or h...

God and Me: Do I believe in God?  Do God Exist ? Introduction I met someone online recently, she asked me do you believe in God? I said its a very tough question and I will need to explain in so many dimensions, so I better not bore her to death. She insisted, she wants me to explain on what is my though on God. The following is from the chat we had regarding this subject. I encourage you to send me your comments to. I would like to know your views too. It Starts Like this Do you believe in God? Are you aware of the present situation in the world (Corona virus pandemic) and the evils of Europe's churches? The following I will need to explain in few parts. Or even more. I aim would be to explain what I think in most simple words (So that I don't bore you to death).  Brief Intro Man should learn about his limits. No matter how deep knowledge he have about the world and universe, he still don't have any control over his soul (I mean his death). He still...