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Is it worth writing ?

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Thank you. Yes. Thank you. Thank you for visiting my blog, thank you for reading. I have this genuine emotion towards you. I know I might never see you. I don’t know your name, your story, or your journey. From one stranger to another—thank you. I got a call from a friend who visited my blog recently and asked, “Why do you write?” I replied, “Just for fun.” It was a quick call, so I gave a quick answer. Then I started thinking: why do I write? Why do I even bother writing in this day and age of A.I? I heard the term A.I for the first time in 2016. Before that, it was just robots and computers. Then A.I became a buzzword and the rise of A.I as the new villain in town began. Ever since then, the world and its tech have gone ten times faster, and I can’t keep up anymore. Just going with the flow. Keep smiling. Why do I write? I might have answered this before. I might have had a different answer before. Today, my answer is: I don’t know. I can see that I can silence my brain. I stop overt...
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Rapid-fire Writing - Testing

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It's been a while... I don't know what's going on. I've lost all control of my life. It feels like I am following someone else's plan and routine. I am just a body going through the motions. Life has been very tough lately. I just can't find time to write anymore. I don't get any time for myself. Even when I get a day off, it's about following someone else's plan. I've lost all my motivation to live. I laugh at myself now. I used to have a strict daily routine and followed my plan. Now, I am just going with the flow. I am unable to think. I am unable to do what I like. I am in chains. I don't know where I am. I am lost. I have responsibilities. I have tasks to complete. I have people to report to. I have a normal life. I think... I am happy. Life has become all about survival and just staying afloat. I have just enough to get through the next day. I have lost my self-worth and self-respect. I have been unable to think about myself. I don'...
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Fade

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 Brooks is tried after a busy day at the garden, the grass had grown tall and the bushes need trimming. Its been a while since he had worked so much after retirement, his knee aches after standing and walking all day. All he want is a toast with marmalade and hot chocolate. "Chocolate is bad for your teeth...." a voice from a distance. It was his mother's voice, he looked around for his mom...."But...but my mom died long time ago....." Brooks said to himself, he started to get unsettled...."Am I loosing my mind? " he thought..."I am hearing things..I am hallucinating." A panic is setting in.  Brooks knew its getting serious, he might loose his memory due to old age.  Few weeks passed by, a fog in his mind, faces blurred, conversations evaporated, and the details of yesterday dissolved like mist. He sighed, resigned to the fact that his memories were like sand slipping through his fingers, no matter how desperately he tried to hold on. Shuffl...
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Goals for 2024 - Prepare for World War 3 (Funny Thoughts)

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 Goals for 2024 : First Car, New Job, Gym, Marriage, New Location, New Me,   Prepare for World War 3 19/01/2023 "New Year's Eve I was sleeping , exactly midnight the firework started. I lost my sleep, went out, saw the city on fire in all directions, enjoyed the fireworks, went back to sleep. Intentionally didn't make any goals list this year as I couldn't achieve most of my goals of last year.  Few of my goals last year were:  Buy my first car, New job Hit the gym Get married Move to a new location Make more conversation with people Make friends  Pet a dog, pet a cat. Travel more They were all time specific goals with micro steps with the guidelines of experts. The goals list was much longer than this, but I did achieve a few like,  new job, traveled more (35 cities) , hit the gym and a few other that's not in the list.  Last year all I did was work, worked without a break and at the end there is nothing to show. Feels empty. I did wish to just stop a...
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2023

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  28/12/2023 I must write something about this year 2023. Writing this out of the blue without any proper thinking or preparation. Just putting things down as it comes to me, no editing or proofreading.  This might help me laugh in the future. 2023 killed me psychologically, all I did was work all the time, everyday. If I was not working, just spending time alone. This year, I specially tried making friends but failed for the most part, got better in making conversations. Wanted to travel more, I did travel to few many cities and I liked it, did wanted to travel more and wished if I could be with my friends. At the end of the year I lost or missed everyone. Most of them moved, some forgot, some didn't care, in short life happen. Is it true that as we get older its hard to make friends?  Failed The years 2021 and 2022 was mostly very productive, worked on new things and made a lot of money. I was so happy about making money, but there was that void of not having my friends...
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Five Years Of Writing

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Time  Yeah.....here we are. Five years...... "The Following Are Just Random Thoughts In My Head" It started as a hobby and still is. When I started I never knew where this is going to lead. Thank you for all the time I got to write, I am happy I did what I can. One thought in my mind, " So much lonely time". Most of of these post take more than two hours to write as I need to think and then I will need to keep the draft to think again wondering if I need to post it or just delete it, I debate with myself and then I got a friend who often proof reads every single line and correct my mistake  (she works for free and I have not paid her anything. I must pay her something).  Often I tell myself "Get a life." I should have done something else. Now I don't know why I write. Just want to write down all the debate I have with me. I wish I had a friend to talk to and discuss about life and everything under the stars and including stars.  Forgot how to make a fr...
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Pawn

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  He stood there still, like a stone pillar, he froze in time as he got the news, felt like the world is moving around faster. He will not be promoted to a permanent position this time and he must leave the job as his contract ends. He started thinking about his time at the job,  was on time every single day,  got along well with every coworkers, he was the best employee of the month several times, he proved back to back that he could handle the most stressful tasks, he did the jobs that nobody else wanted to do. He have showed great amount of dedication and commitment to his job.  He did everything he can. Or did he? Where did he go wrong? Why did it happen? Why was he not chosen? Why did they throw him out?  He requested his manager to extent his contract and he will work twice as hard and can do better than he did already,  The manager replied, they love to keep him and he is so good but the situation at the moment is very hard and they need to give his ...
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I Am At The Finish Line | Harison Xavier

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  I am at the finish Line Father I have sinned.  Put me back in Line I am being skinned.  I worked hard I learned hard I lived hard I failed hard. Don't let them kill me I got more in me Fight with me Win with me. Forgive me O Lord I have sinned Forgive me O Lord I am pinned. I failed a million time Let me win from this time The war is here Be with me near. Lost everything Be my King You are my only string Take me to the spring Forgive me O Lord I forgot your sword Fought the battle alone Broken my bone. Forgive me O Lord I am ashamed in me Be with me Me let glee.  Let me win Let me grin Let me shine I am at the finish line. 
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Will Meet Soon Bro

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  We will meet soon bro... Sid texted.  Jim knew that will be the last time he will hear from him. It happens again, another friend is moving away. Now Jim will have more time alone in the dark. Made good memories, traveled together. Lived moments together. Jim had a great time with his friends including Sid. They all dreamed that one day they all will be stetted in this huge metropolitan city, Everdrive. They walked these streets together and enjoyed the time. Jim remember once Sid pointed out to a skyscraper and said Bro, you see that corner office on that 43rd floor, that will be my office in next 2 years.  Two years went by and Sid is moving way, life is unpredictable. Jim tried to think about the last time he saw him. Jim dearly wished if he could be with his friends and just sit together and talk, he wanted to experience that sense of belonging to a team. Before moving Sid had borrowed money from Jim and never returned, Jim didn't ask the money back, so did Neil, be...
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Sunlight

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 March 27 2022 I remember this day, I was sitting in a nearby park, listening to music and getting some Sun light. At that time, I was smiling at myself, wondering how beautiful it is to get some sunlight after a long time. Working long hours endlessly without any break or dayoff, I wish I was free. I was surprised that as simple as sitting out for some sunlight is able to make me so happy. Watching people go by at the park, birds, squirrels and rabbits.  I sat there for an hour, I wished if I had someone to talk to, couldn't make any friends. All the people I know are coworkers with their own life, I wish I was a part of something important. I wish I was needed. Just sitting there enjoying the Sun and the beautiful music of nature is good enough, would been better if I had a soul to talk to. But that's life. Be happy with what you have. Enjoy the precious moment.      Present Day -  October 12th  2023 Life is not bad, happy, alive, surviving, wish it ...
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