Rapid-fire Writing - Testing

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It's been a while...

I don't know what's going on. I've lost all control of my life. It feels like I am following someone else's plan and routine. I am just a body going through the motions.

Life has been very tough lately. I just can't find time to write anymore. I don't get any time for myself. Even when I get a day off, it's about following someone else's plan.

I've lost all my motivation to live. I laugh at myself now. I used to have a strict daily routine and followed my plan. Now, I am just going with the flow.

I am unable to think. I am unable to do what I like. I am in chains. I don't know where I am. I am lost.

I have responsibilities. I have tasks to complete. I have people to report to. I have a normal life. I think... I am happy.

Life has become all about survival and just staying afloat. I have just enough to get through the next day. I have lost my self-worth and self-respect. I have been unable to think about myself. I don't know what I need. I don't know what I want. I don't know what happened. I don't know who is controlling me.

This note is to test myself, to see if I can feel alive again. I now hate writing negative or sad stories. I don't know what I am doing. That feeling of being powerless and stuck never seems to leave.

I sincerely apologize for this madness that you had to read today. I am just trying to get a grip.

Location: QHG5+PH Bourne, UK

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