Thank You 2020. You will be missed | Harison Xavier

 

Just a personal note.

I must thank 2020 for many things. I know, I know. You must be thinking I am out of my mind. 

No, I am not.

First of all I am alive. It was very close yet here I am alive. 

    2020 is in the past and I want to thank 2020 for a few things. It was the darkest  year for almost everyone on the planet. Lots of suffering and chaos, floods, wildfire, earthquake, terrorist attacks, riots, accidents, and finally Covid 19. This is the first time in many years humans faced one common problem together and we fought bravely. Not everyone made it, we lost a lot of people and we cannot replace the gap they left in our lives.  The war is not over yet, but we could hope for a victory over this virus soon. There may be a rise of a new pandemic, lets hope its far far away, we are not ready for another one.

  I remember me and my friends had a lot of plans like go for a long trip, marriage, starting a new business and on and on for the year and we were all looking forward to achieve it. Sadly just like all our other dreams even this year we couldn't achieve it. 

I was separated from my family and friends for the past many months due to my job and education and I spend most of my time alone in my room. I always craved for a good friend or a human touch. I didn't have any loved ones near me. I spend all my time in front of a laptop or my phone. To make matters worse we got a lockdown due to covid19. I should have left home early but I didn't wanted to abandon my job and teammates midway,  we were working on a new project and I had few other plans too. 

I hoped everything will be okay by the end of lockdown, but it didn't trains or buses were still halted. My college and my office had to shutdown as the matters are going out of hands, but I still believed everything will be fine, too much positive thinking or just stubborn. I still enjoyed my time, I was happy being lonely in a big city, there was nobody to bother me and I can carry on with my own thoughts and daily activities. I was able to read more than 15 books and many other online articles. I was able to meet new people online and do productive things. I met a good friend Alina from Russia and we started writing a book together. Hope we will be able to finish it soon. 

    Looking back now, I see that I was very lucky and I don't know to whom I should thank. The only people that helped me and stood next to me was my family and close friends. I failed and lost everything I had but I still got my family.    At home as I write this, I am with my family save and happy. ( Kind of selfish of myself) I am been taught again by life that family is everything and be happy now, at the present. I see that life was tough and it will be tougher in the future and I have to face it. There is no escape from it. I can tell myself everything will be okay. It is time to heal, It is time to start building something new. 

Something I want to tell to 2020

        Thank you for bringing me to the ground.

        Thank you for making me humble.

        Thank you for making me suffer. 

        Thank you for all the pain, it made me strong

        Thank you for all the spoiled plans, I got better.

        Thank you for failing me, I learned.  

        It is just a bad time and these times will go away. 

        Thank you for teaching me new things.

        Thank you for my family, love, care and happiness. 

        Thank you for giving me time to spend on myself. 

        Thank you for showing the true colors of people.

        Thank you for showing me what matters the most. 

        Thank you for bringing me home as a new man.

        Thank you for the time with family and friends.

        Thank you for fake people, I am more vigilant. 

        Thank you for false promises, I don't trust easily anymore.

        I know they all hate you, you have been an a-hole.

        But I still like you and I will miss you 2020.

        The future is tougher and I am ready. 

        Bigger things are coming my way.

Thank you. 
Harison Xavier